Sunday, 18 March 2012

Guitar

最近啊~
我和吉他有了很深的感情。
渐渐的、我爱上了吉他。

因为,它让我找到了前所未有的感觉。
感觉是微妙的,是微妙的改变。

第一次,我用它来为我 “表达爱意”:
我默默的自学了一首曲子,
真是的,学到手指都起泡、抽筋。
一个月,我用一个月去学。
终于,像样的第一首曲子,诞生了!
但是,这么辛苦,都没用。
最后,还是什么都没有。

第二次,我用它来发泄:
往事,懒惰提起。讲来伤心罢了。
我只知道,我那时弹到 "string" 都要断了。

p/s:幸亏,没有断掉~

然后呢,我开始不要用它来泄气。
慢慢从简单的 chord 开始。
慢慢的摸索、学习。

也开始回了几首曲子。
现在,学着如何弹 barre chord。
也会了几种,B Bm Cm F Fm。。
现在想回,还好我没放弃。

因为,吉他成了我现在的依靠。

=)


pretend to be good, pretend that I'm ok.

假装坚强,是不想让人看到眼泪;
假装开心,是不想让人知道寂寞;
假装快乐,是不想让人看出孤独;
假装高兴,是不想让人看见伤口;
假装甜蜜,是不想让人看见泪水;
假装轻松,是不想让人发觉心酸;
假装幸福,是不想让人看见疤痕;
假装成熟,是不想让人看出无知;
假装聪明,是不想让人看到失败。


假装,是很累的。
有时,宁愿不想面对,不想假装下去。


可是,你知道吗?
假装是我的强项。就只有这个而已。


pretend to be good, pretend to be I'm ok. 
Just go ahead, to be a good pretender.
Although i believe time can heal anything, but there still a crack.
A hurting form of crack.


shit la, what for i think that much.. just not worth it, it only ruined up my life
Just like that, my life = gg.com 


Since,
he acts like u're not worth his time,
maybe u're not what he wants
u're just a replacement
for what he can't have


i want my life back, just what i used to have before.



Thursday, 15 March 2012

creep - radiohead

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry


You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out the door
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here 

Sunday, 4 March 2012

My life is swinging, My life is endless

Rose

My life is swinging
My life is endless
It is endlessly falling down from heaven
And you will be washed to my shore
So light, so bright
Your face is shining above me
Heavy rainfalls and fragile guidance inside me
Roses, oh I beg you to blind me with love
Come down, feed me with stars that you’ve stolen from heaven
Waste me, kill me with one single glance into my eyes
Roses, oh I beg you to blind me with love
My life is swinging
My life is endless
It is endlessly falling down from heaven
And you will be washed to my shore
Believe in goldmines
Believe in crying
Fear in your sweet hair reminds me of the silent days
I don’t fear death
There’s no place for me
Heal my soul
Be my raincoat, Roses
Although I’m swinging
My life is over
It is over

Thursday, 1 March 2012

噩梦

一切发生的太快、快的我无法招架,快得我喘不过气来了。
梦的情景,永远是模糊不清,没头没尾。但感觉是多么的扎实、真实地浮现在你面前。

噩梦,你又来了。
是不是没见一阵子,又想偷偷地来探望我?
我好不容易从那深渊里逃出来,你现在又想把我拉进去?
你别妄想!!上次粉身碎骨的感觉还在。
我的心最近和我说,他还没痊愈,还在痛~

那段看似熟悉的路,我经常沿着它走。慢慢的、一步一步观察四周围。
周围都是一望无际的青草地,每根草都刚好到我的大腿。
我就索性躺在草地上,很舒服,很舒服。
突然,有个声音,低沉却模糊。
“你永远是失败的,不可能会找到真爱的。你注定是失恋的,因为幸福没你分。感情是你的坟墓,你是那个被埋掉的人。生命注定悲哀的啦!。。。。。。”

为什么???我认为我可以啊。我不要失败!

噩梦,你不是一面镜子。
So now, what is dream ?  a lier ? a faker ? a satan ? 
i don't know.














无形的驾驶~

突然接到了一个朋友的电话。
可怜的他刚下飞机,就找不到车回家。然后又付不起taxi费,才不得已的找我。


那时,已经 10.30pm 了。
从我家、到机场、再送他到家(beverly)、又从那里回到我家。
一共花了40分钟。


总的来说,我想倾诉的是:我回家的路途上。


回家的路上呢,我花了最长的时间。
我车的时速是 40km/h 。。这是最快的。
然后我把窗都开了,收听 litefm。。


所播的都是老情歌。最让我意想不到的是,它正播着 Dream A Little Dream Of Me。
我不懂要感谢那个电台,还是要咒骂那个电台。
我的心很痛,当我听这首歌,可是我还是把它听完。


因为,我想着你!


I MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(T.T)(T.T)(T.T) (T.T)(T.T) (T.T)(T.T) (T.T)(T.T) (T.T)(T.T) (T.T)(T.T) (T.T)(T.T) (T.T)


please be my side.. when i cry, i need your shoulder. >.<


please tell me you love me, please tell me you need me.


when i lost, i need you to guide me.


i miss your kiss on my forehead .. i really miss you !